You number my wanderings; Put my tears into Your bottle;
Are they not in Your book?
This passage represents millions who have wandered. Wandering speaks of losing your way, or just losing sight of the path. Wanderers pray desperate prayers, they worship extravagantly, they pray without ceasing, and they cry bitterly before God. Most of us have walked through seasons of faith where we feel nothing, see nothing and it looks like our enemy has the upper hand. That is where we learn to deepen our trust in God. That is where we lean on Lamentations 3 and declare, “Great is His faithfulness and His mercies are renewed every day.” We have all asked this question to God, “Why me? Why this? Why now? Why this way? Why? Why? Why?” Some people will try to shame you for saying such things, but secretly in their heart, they have had the same questions. It’s the plight of the wanderer. If God can number our wanderings, put our tears in a bottle and write about those days in His book, then why doesn’t He do something about our painful plight? If we didn’t have seasons like this, we would have no tears in a bottle, and that is something you want to have when you get to heaven.
When Mary approached Jesus with the alabaster box, she broke the box and it filled the room with an aroma. The men in the room scolded her for this action, but in her defense, Jesus said that the names of the people in the room would not be remembered, but the story of Mary and the alabaster box would be told until the end of time. And here we are, telling it again. Each of the gospel writers recorded this story and each gave different details. Doctor Luke, who is known for giving details, is the only one who records that she anointed His head with the oil, but washed His feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. It is interesting that Jesus’ last act of blessing for His disciples was to wash their feet. It wasn’t because their feet were dirty, but rather He was blessing them.
Perhaps your tears that are stored in a bottle in heaven are there so you can one day repeat the scene of Mary and Jesus. Maybe you will get to wash His feet with your tears as she did and as all the pain that caused those tears are wiped away- forever.