I’m Back!
I'm back! It has been close to a year since my last post. To be honest I was burned out in a lot of ways. I found myself coming to the computer and not having anything to say. In fact, it was taking everything I could get to speak on sundays and wednesdays. I was still doing devotions and sermon prep, just wasn't getting anything out of it like I once did. The problem was in me. The last 21 days has revealed a lot to me about me. I have gotten my "edge" back so to say. I saw compromises that I didn't before know I was committing. Things I didn't think were affecting me, were. I am re-learning how important it is to cut out all of the noise in our lives from time to time for the purpose of listening to God. I can not, nor can you, operate without a clear Word from the Lord.
One of the things that I am coming to terms with is my insecurity. This has been a life long struggle for me. As a teen, i was very shy, and even around my friends always felt on the outside. As I came into ministry I was constantly under the heaviness that I wasn't good enough. No matter what I did, it was never enough. The enemy used this to the max and it drained me terribly. During this fast, I have begun the journey out of this. Understanding that indeed I am not good enough, and I can't do enough. It's God's grace. Though I am to be diligent to do His work, and to be obedient to Him, ultimately it is His grace. Somehow I began to trust in my works and not His. I feel like there are a lot of us in the pews. The enemy is draining us because of this. Over the next few days, I am going to go in to more detail. Until then......STEP Forward! (more to come on that statement later)
One of the things that I am coming to terms with is my insecurity. This has been a life long struggle for me. As a teen, i was very shy, and even around my friends always felt on the outside. As I came into ministry I was constantly under the heaviness that I wasn't good enough. No matter what I did, it was never enough. The enemy used this to the max and it drained me terribly. During this fast, I have begun the journey out of this. Understanding that indeed I am not good enough, and I can't do enough. It's God's grace. Though I am to be diligent to do His work, and to be obedient to Him, ultimately it is His grace. Somehow I began to trust in my works and not His. I feel like there are a lot of us in the pews. The enemy is draining us because of this. Over the next few days, I am going to go in to more detail. Until then......STEP Forward! (more to come on that statement later)
