Embracing Brokenness

You woke up this morning. You wanted it to be a good day. A good day could be defined as the following:

- No one cut you off as you headed into work
- No major conflicts arose at work or home
- No problems with your car or other machinery throughout the day
- People served you quickly and with respect at the store, restaurant, or other business
- You did not acquire any new projects (paperwork) at work

I don’t know about you, but it seems like one of these things happens to me every day.

Some days it really bugs me, other days it rolls off. The sad truth is that the days I am bothered have become more frequent. I have tried the “be thankful” attitude and it used to honestly work. Maybe I should try that angle again. I could guilt myself into realizing again that I am in the top 1% of the richest people on the earth, although wealth is no indicator of contentment or happiness. In fact, it may be the exact opposite. See how my mind works?

I really wanted to change, so I decided to ask God how can I really change this.

What if today, I decided to started the day bracing myself with peace for the conflicts that will arise today?

How might my world be different?

What level of peace and contentment am I really entitled to?

I am not sure I have the answer to these questions. I guess the one thing that I can control is myself. I can choose (as hard as I can) to be a healing agent to bring peace, instead of expecting peace to come my way and I pray you will as well (so as not to break my peacefulness :) ).