I had a reoccurring dream last night. Does that mean…

I had a reoccurring dream last night. Does that mean the bitterness is still there? Have I forgiven the offences of the COG AB toward me? I have a load of offenses toward the ABs should I talk about them or just keep them hid and pray that God reverses the offenses toward healing?
Do you think I should keep it quiet? COG ABs think so! They don’t care about me they care about the church and I am collateral damage